homemade blues

I miss G. Next week Friday only the boys and I will see him, since he can't come back home this weekend. I've just gotten used to having him around, having left my weekend wife days ~ 2 years ago... Hehe. Mengada2 pulak.

So tomorrow my aunt's coming over dgn anak2 dia, which means D has company and so will I. Basically the plan is to stay at home. If it doesn't rain, maybe we'll go to the golf club pool.

My mood has been as gloomy as the weather. I'm short with the kids, the maid. Sigh. G, I need you to balance my chi. I especially don't feel like going to work. Malas! I don't look forward to it. I used to. I'm so counting the days to start of the sabbatical leave.

And so I envy those who are so passionate about what they do. I wish I still have that drive, that passion, that zeal. It used to make me want to go that extra mile. Give it the last push and all I've got. And have that sense of accomplishment at the end of it. Don't think I've accomplished much lately. Boss pulak have great expectations. Double sigh.

As usual, when I'm in my "sombre" mood, tadi in 1 Utama, I thought of retail therapy. Tapi, I managed to restrain myself from making unnecessary (and possibly regret later) purchases to make myself happy. I read about this in an article somewhere, sometime ago. Can't quite remember the title of the article now... something about being happy - small town vs big city style. It was an interesting read.

1st resolution for 2009 - manage budget! Got to have that budget worked out with G...
2nd resolution for 2009 - manage time! Got to start working on the timetable...

Tapi takde mood laaa...