homemade blues

Probably because I napped earlier in the evening. I shouldn't have, I know. But I felt so sleepy, and oh well, what's done is done...

The other thing is that I had another one of those spats with G. We were so okay these past few weeks - maybe the good run couldn't last any longer - but I was a bit disappointed that he's upset upon my insistence that he spend tomorrow with me and the kids. From Monday onwards, he'll be on a week-long job in Kuantan, and although he was on leave this week, it was more like a working week, since he was busy preparing for the tournament, and meeting up with people for future projects.

It is a strange feeling, that I crave his presence more than I did when we weren't staying together. And coupled with me being at home more than I was 6 months+ ago, now that I'm at home every time he comes home... I dunno. I don't expect him to be stuck to me like a conjoined twin for every seemingly mundane spousal task, of course, but isn't it a fair expectation that I get a piece of him, when everyone else can?

I guess it's just one of those days when we have to choose who gets to be happy. He chose to make me happy, but I know that he's unhappy, and so his choice now makes me unhappy. What a guilt trip. Sigh.

Even so, I'm not going to apologize for insisting this time. I hope things will be better in the morning...

Hmm... D is talking in his sleep. He's mumbling, "I love you, Ibu (Mum)" - which he usually does when he did something wrong, or when he wants something from me, or when he wants to distract me. I wonder what he's dreaming about.

A is recovering from an off-and-on fever he's been having the past few days. He's been quite active and taking food and drink well throughout, although with a higher than normal temperature, so I wasn't that worried. His temperature is almost back to normal since last night, so I'd give him another day before I take him off the fever meds.

Other than that, it's been quite boring, this last week of school holiday, since we're all recovering from the trauma of A's health scare. School starts again on Monday for D. Back to the grind then.